note to future self (open this in 5 years time)
hi. its currently 7:51pm right now on 27/5/2020. im supposedly should be studying for my quiz tonight but yea im gonna write till 8pm. so, how are you doing? you good? what are you working as? you married? ahahhahahaha lol. im a bit shocked if you are already married bcs just a moment ago you felt like you dont deserve anyone. so, whos the guy? whos the guy who accepted you for who you are? or... do no one accepted you yet? hahhahahhaha predictable lol. so, im currently disappointed a lot bcs im so stupid. i should love my self and stop chasing other people who doesnt value me. i should stop terhegeh-hegeh to people who doesnt feel the same to me. idk man. what are you thinking right now? how did you go through all of these stuff? are you happy now? are you eating well? have you repented a lot? idk what will happened to me, i just hope if you are astray at this moment you are reading this, i hope you get back to the right path again. Allah is the only God and Muhammad SAW is His messenger. i hope you are doing so much better. what are you struggling with right now? is it the same thing as i struggle now? how is mak? how is your relationship with her? is she doing good? im trying my best to be good to her. its hard, but imm trying. if you still aint good, keep on trying. im doing baby steps now, i hope it helps you in future. pls be a happy person. its already 8pm, im gonna study first and i'll get back to this later. see you.
oh hey, its 12:15am on 28//5/2020. finished studying for the quiz few minutes after the quiz started, its an online quiz so yea, i can do it in the time given aight. the quiz was good. so yea. i just done replying to Mr H. heeeeeeeeeeeeey so are you still with Mr H or are you single mingle or did you really got married omggggggggggg... the question is, with who? hahahahaha. if it is with Mr H, how is he now? did he really changed himself? does he saw your worth now? does he only loves you solely? ahhh lucky youuuu for still keep it going. congrats for not giving up. but if he wasnt the one, im proud of you too, bcs you can manage yourself out from it. i understand how hard it is to let him go, you loves him too much right now at this moment of my time. he is your first love, its so hard to let go. but wtv it is, i hope youre the most happiest person on earth now. whoever you are with, i hope you find peace, understand each other, and happy when you guys are around. if you aint with anyone yet, its fine, i hope youre the happiest person on earth bcs you dont need to handle any relationship problems. yes, having partner is good, but it is if you are with the right person. i still dont know if this Mr H really is the right one for me or not. i have doubts, mostly about my ownself, like, i know i cant make him happy, i know he can find happiness with someone else, i know he doesnt see my worth so he wont know what he lost even if i left him, he wont see it. i know. i dont know. is this really worth it? what did you do?
enough about him. so, have you travel anywhere yeeeeet~ did you finally went to Italy? Japan? have you met GD yet????? MINSIK? OH MY GOD HAVE YOU MET MINSIK??? or do you have your new favourite? well, i realise that my interest on GD and Minsik has been decreasing since Mr H bcs he's jealous ((see i care for his feelings)), but after that, did you manage to find a new favourite? youve lost lots of yourself, did you find a new good side of you? are you getting better or are you getting worst? im really curious of what you feel and what youre thinking right now. how about your work? where are you working now? have you really found your passion? how is your relationship with human? are you still socially awkward? have you been making any friend? wait is five years from now so youre 27 omgggggg youre 27.... so did you work after you get your diploma or did you continue with degree? so did you get ANC? did you get the best student award? are you happy with everything you have? whats your new favourite? drinks? food? you tried new things? you met great people who inspires you a lot? have you been loving yourself a lot now? so many thingsssssssss im curious about damn i wish you could answer me nowwwwwwwwwww bcs i really wanna know. hey, i will continue this later, i wanna pray and sleep. i wish you well. dont forget to pray and give sadaqah!! i love you my future self :) even though there arent anyone who accepts you for who you are, even though there are no one who gonna love you for who you are, you still have your own self. please do love your own self and trust in Allah's plan. He is the best planner and He surely has the best one for you. dont be sad. this world is only temporary, if you dont get it here, perhaps you will get it in the hereafter. please, please do a lot of ibadah, please. i love you.
oh hey, its 12:15am on 28//5/2020. finished studying for the quiz few minutes after the quiz started, its an online quiz so yea, i can do it in the time given aight. the quiz was good. so yea. i just done replying to Mr H. heeeeeeeeeeeeey so are you still with Mr H or are you single mingle or did you really got married omggggggggggg... the question is, with who? hahahahaha. if it is with Mr H, how is he now? did he really changed himself? does he saw your worth now? does he only loves you solely? ahhh lucky youuuu for still keep it going. congrats for not giving up. but if he wasnt the one, im proud of you too, bcs you can manage yourself out from it. i understand how hard it is to let him go, you loves him too much right now at this moment of my time. he is your first love, its so hard to let go. but wtv it is, i hope youre the most happiest person on earth now. whoever you are with, i hope you find peace, understand each other, and happy when you guys are around. if you aint with anyone yet, its fine, i hope youre the happiest person on earth bcs you dont need to handle any relationship problems. yes, having partner is good, but it is if you are with the right person. i still dont know if this Mr H really is the right one for me or not. i have doubts, mostly about my ownself, like, i know i cant make him happy, i know he can find happiness with someone else, i know he doesnt see my worth so he wont know what he lost even if i left him, he wont see it. i know. i dont know. is this really worth it? what did you do?
enough about him. so, have you travel anywhere yeeeeet~ did you finally went to Italy? Japan? have you met GD yet????? MINSIK? OH MY GOD HAVE YOU MET MINSIK??? or do you have your new favourite? well, i realise that my interest on GD and Minsik has been decreasing since Mr H bcs he's jealous ((see i care for his feelings)), but after that, did you manage to find a new favourite? youve lost lots of yourself, did you find a new good side of you? are you getting better or are you getting worst? im really curious of what you feel and what youre thinking right now. how about your work? where are you working now? have you really found your passion? how is your relationship with human? are you still socially awkward? have you been making any friend? wait is five years from now so youre 27 omgggggg youre 27.... so did you work after you get your diploma or did you continue with degree? so did you get ANC? did you get the best student award? are you happy with everything you have? whats your new favourite? drinks? food? you tried new things? you met great people who inspires you a lot? have you been loving yourself a lot now? so many thingsssssssss im curious about damn i wish you could answer me nowwwwwwwwwww bcs i really wanna know. hey, i will continue this later, i wanna pray and sleep. i wish you well. dont forget to pray and give sadaqah!! i love you my future self :) even though there arent anyone who accepts you for who you are, even though there are no one who gonna love you for who you are, you still have your own self. please do love your own self and trust in Allah's plan. He is the best planner and He surely has the best one for you. dont be sad. this world is only temporary, if you dont get it here, perhaps you will get it in the hereafter. please, please do a lot of ibadah, please. i love you.
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